i was sitting here reading a bunch of people's xanga's and thinking, "when and how did we lose touch with each other." It's like when you graduate high school and you really think that you and your closest friends are going to stay in touch and things will be the same. But then college starts, and they slowly start to unravel. For me anyway it's 5 years later and i talk to one person i graduated with at least once a month. That's it.
i want to feel jealous, and wish things back the way they were. When i could hang out with 20 people after church and have a blast. But God's plan is usually not what we have planned for our life. And the friends that come and the friends that go are part of His plan.
When i went to Calvary (church) i helped out with a program called Tower, where we would bring in elementary school students from so local schools and tutor them and play games with them. Really just letting them know people love them and more importantly that God loves them. Anyway, i would get there early every week and a lady named Marie and i would go pick up the kids in the church van. Marie and i ended up becoming good friends, she was the sweetest lady in the world. We would talk about life and what God was doing in each of our lives, and where God was testing us and showing us where we had opportunities to grow.
Well i moved to Michigan so i didn't see Marie for a couple months, and when i moved back i found out Marie had cancer. i got to see her at church one Sunday and the cancer had gone in to remission. i saw Marie a couple weeks later at Meg's and my wedding and she looked like she was getting stronger. And a couple weeks ago i ran into her at a friends wedding. She pulled me aside to let me know that the cancer had came back and they were going to have to remove one of her lungs.
I was living in Michigan so Megan and i were doing alot of the wedding planning over the phone. We had been going back and forth on who was going to sing. Well we decided and that weekend i was coming home i was going to ask Faith, a girl i had graduated with to sing. My mom called me at work and told me that there was a drunk driving accident and she thought she had heard the name of one of my friends from school. Well my mom called back when she heard the police report and it was true.
Needless to say Marie didn't make it out of surgery and Faith was killed by a drunk driver. Most of the time God's plan is totally different than what we want, but His plan is perfect. | 
